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All these flaky flakers today.
I need a job to occupy more of my life.
Today I was so extremely annoyed by people not texting me back/calling me back or doing as they said they would. I feel like I can only name 3 people who I know will contact me back in some form if I've set out to talk to them. I don't know why I take it to heart so badly, but I do. And the fact that nobody (hardly anybody) sees this the same makes me even more frustrated.
Why do I give a shit if nobody replies?
Why do I make a list in my head of the reasons they don't want to talk to me?
How pathetic is it that I am glued to my phone/computer to the extent that people can at almost all times get in touch with me?
It spooks me how sad and depressed and mopey I get when I've put multiple efforts into talking to people, and never hear back from them.
How EFFING hard is it to say, "Hey, I'm busy but I'll call ya later."?
I would much prefer that to dead silence, and no reply, and no IDEA as to why I haven't heard from you.
I guess my logic is that if I saw you in person, called out "Hey! what's up?" or "----- How did last night go?" or " Lemme know when you're ready to go to dinner."... and you heard me, kept walking, and just blatantly ignored me... I'd be pretty damn offended. Wouldn't you?



I don't get angry often
but it's just one of those nights.

I feel there are a few solutions.
1. Keep doing as I am, keep getting upset and mad and frustrated.
2. Stop talking to people. If I don't text/call/message them first, then them not returning the favor won't be out of the ordinary..
3. Ignore these people when they need something, although I know I won't do that because I just don't have it in my nature.
4. Blog about it.


So there you have it. I am doing all four, actually.
I am still frustrated, not initiating conversations, ignoring the ones I get(but I know I'll reply before the night's over), and angry blogging.


I need to go to bed.