I want to be so much more than I am

http://www.facebook.com/shelly.burns.716
http://bitchesgottaeat.blogspot.com/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kuC2sc-1CMU
http://www.wearingitonmysleeves.com/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Hu80onJIko
http://amazingwomenrock.com/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6wJl37N9C0&feature=player_embedded#!
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2501633/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0snNB1yS3IE&feature=related
http://chelseahandler.com/


I look at women like this, and it makes me want to come ALIVE. there's a fiery, brilliant, beautiful woman inside of me that's realizing I have great potential to talk amongst these women like we actually have something in common.
I want to be a gorgeous lady, who is charming and lovely, kind and silly, someone to go to for advice but someone who can ask for it too.

I'd like to someday feel womanly, not young lady-ly; to feel confident in less makeup, to feel attractive on the inside and out, and to feel like I have something to be proud of.
To be able to write a song with lyrics that mean as much as this does to me:

"Shadows settle on the place, that you left.Our minds are troubled by the emptiness.
Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time.From the perfect start to the finish line.

And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones.'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs.
Setting fire to our insides for fun Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong The lovers that went wrong.

We are the reckless, We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our futures One day we'll reveal the truth
That one will die before he gets there. And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone.We're setting fire to our insides for fun.
Collecting pictures from the flood that wrecked our home, It was a flood that wrecked this... 

... and you caused it...
... and you caused it...
... and you caused it... 

Well I've lost it all, I'm just a silouhette, A lifeless face that you'll soon forget,
My eyes ae damp from the words you left, Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one,
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone.Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.But I'm forever missing him."

To walk in shoes that aren't falling apart, in an outfit I pieced to perfection in my sleep, with my hair looking like it dried in angel's breath. To not think it's naive to believe in magic, in TRUE love, to be emotionally in control.   to be able to pay my parents back and then some, in money and love and gratitude for all things they have given me. To make sure that they whole-heartedly know, believe and understand how much I appreciate everything about them.

I want to be fearless, limitless, and inspiring like these women are to 20 year old girls like me.

To not be frustrated with who I am. To know who I am, what I want, and know that I can do anything I want to do, because nothing is unattainable and I am capable of anything if I try.
Not to be self discovering, but to have been self-discovered.